Of Life, And Other Things.

"so she held him she held him like a video rental no sense of ownership just a gentle knowing..."

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 15:44:42 -0400

“

so she held him
she held him like a video rental
no sense of ownership
just a gentle knowing
that he would have to be returned
in working condition

so he touched her
he touched her like a carpenter
admiring the craftsmanship
of a much better carpenter
no envy
just the honest appreciation
of something that would later inspire him
to build a better self

”

- Excerpt from “Communion” by Shane L. Koyczan, contained in Our Deathbeds Will Be Thirsty (via fuckyeahkoyczan)

The Magic Trick

Thu, 07 Mar 2013 10:11:29 -0500

“Show me a magic trick.”

She looked at him, doe eyed and unable to contain her excitement. She was twenty.

“Okay, pick a card.”

He smiled and handed her the deck. He’s built, dark, not a showstopper but has shoulders that feel like they could take on the world.

“You picked the king of hearts, right?”

“How did you know?” She furrowed her eyebrows, trying to figure out the trick. “I keep getting that card! He likes me. Maybe I’m the queen of hearts.”

“You think you’re the queen of hearts?”

“I am!”

“Show me a magic trick.”

She passed him the deck of cards. She is now old and frail, but the light hasn’t gone out from her eyes, not yet. She is seventy-five.

“Okay, pick a card.”

He shuffled the cards and handed it to her. He is now old. Too old. He can’t remember his tricks as well and his movements are not that smooth. He is eighty.

“You picked the king of hearts, right?”

She smiled and placed her card back into the deck, and gave her old man a kiss on his forehead.

“How do you always know?” She frowned a bit and cleared up what’s left of their meal. “It’s not fair. The card followed me because I’m the queen of hearts. That’s how you know.”

He chuckled a bit and started coughing,

“Come on you old geezer, time to take your medicine before you are gone for good.” She turned to the kitchen to fetch his pills.

He opened the top card in the deck while she’s gone.

It was the three of diamonds.

coldnovemberhands: So she held himShe held him like a video rental No sense of ownershipJust a...

Tue, 26 Feb 2013 17:38:38 -0500

coldnovemberhands:

So she held him
She held him like a video rental
No sense of ownership
Just a gentle knowing
That he would have to be returned
In working condition

So he touched her
He touched her like a carpenter
Admiring the craftsmanship
Of a much better carpenter
No envy
Just the honest appreciation
Of something that would later inspire him
To build a better self

-Shane Koyczan

"If you can’t see anything beautiful about yourself then get a better mirror, look a little closer,..."

Sat, 23 Feb 2013 12:31:33 -0500

“If you can’t see anything beautiful about yourself then get a better mirror, look a little closer, stare a little longer.”

- Shane Koyczan (via ts-ng604)

makemestfu: So relatable blog :)

Sat, 23 Feb 2013 12:31:18 -0500

makemestfu:

So relatable blog :)

art-and-fury: Echo, Predator, Salomé and Dome - Marina Bychkova

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 19:11:13 -0500

art-and-fury:

Echo, Predator, Salomé and Dome - Marina Bychkova

"I was interested in everything and committed to nothing."

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 12:16:07 -0500

“I was interested in everything and committed to nothing.”

- Lin, Shantaram (via cavum)

suicideblonde: {x}

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 09:17:32 -0500

suicideblonde:

{x}

"In 2013, I want to be myself, but better."

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 07:51:42 -0500

“In 2013, I want to be myself, but better.”

- New year’s resolution

I cried.

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 04:48:54 -0500

I cried.

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Thu, 03 Jan 2013 04:46:01 -0500

makemestfu: Reality sucks.

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 04:32:42 -0500

makemestfu:

Reality sucks.

"A mind all logic is like a knife all blade. It makes the hand bleed that uses it."

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 12:45:13 -0500

“A mind all logic is like a knife all blade. It makes the hand bleed that uses it.”

- Rabindranath Tagore (via sometimesmesometimesyou)

thefrogman: [video]

Sun, 23 Dec 2012 07:10:34 -0500

thefrogman:

[video]

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Sun, 23 Dec 2012 06:19:51 -0500

"Love is good, love is kind, love is right."

Sun, 16 Dec 2012 15:38:00 -0500

“Love is good, love is kind, love is right.”

Happy Birthday.

Wed, 12 Dec 2012 14:10:07 -0500

It’s my grandfather’s 79th birthday today and we had a family dinner. I’m glad I made it.

Grandpa has been diagnosed with prostate cancer and though it’s not deadly, yet, he is too old to be going for chemo and knowing how proud he is I guess he refuses to do so as well. His memory is failing, and he is losing the stride in his walk. It pains me more than a bit.

The last time I lost a relative was my mom’s side grandpa and I was too young to know and understand the grief and feeling of loss. At 19, I guess I can make an attempt to describe what loss feels like. Or the feeling of loss. It’s like watching sand going through your fingers, except it’s something worth more than sand of course, something that is precious to you. These precious things are ground to fine particles that makes it easy to slip through when you are looking, or not looking. And you try to hold on but you can’t. You can only watch them disappear slowly until there is nothing left. There is nothing you can do. You can try, but it’s still disappearing even if you’re trying to hold on.

I’m not really good at dealing with losses. I know how I said that we carry on their strength and live on. But it is still terribly painful. Isn’t it.

So please. Please. Treasure those whom you have. I know it’s a cliche to say that you don’t know what you have until it’s gone. But I don’t wish that on you.

I wish that you know what you have, and that you know it’s value.

And how do my parents handle this? I can’t imagine myself in their shoes. I think for now, I just want to complete my studies soon and get back to where they are. I want to share their burdens, not be one of it. And if I wish really hard for it, maybe I’ll be able to get it?

I am scared. Terrified. Alarmed. Disturbed. Horrified. Discouraged.

I should sleep.

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Sun, 02 Dec 2012 21:39:34 -0500

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Sun, 02 Dec 2012 21:37:08 -0500

makemestfu: So relatable :)

Sun, 02 Dec 2012 21:32:34 -0500

makemestfu:

So relatable :)